It’s been a while since I wrote anything. I had the worst experience of my life and I became inactive in many ways. My son, my only child died and it would appear that a huge part of me also died on May 20, 2019. Something else happened during the grieving process. The stress of it all was difficult to bear and my blood sugar spiked above any numbers I have ever experienced in my life. Stress was playing an uncomfortable tune with my diabetes.
I will use this forum to share some information with you. Stress and the high blood sugar levels had me more worried and I was unhappy to see myself so ill and hopeless. It matters not how many people are around you. When your head hits that pillow and you start reflecting, that becomes a real stressor.
I am now totally convinced that stress can effectively erode your blood glucose efforts and leave you with way too much sugar in your blood. The trips to the bathroom alone had me more stressed and frustrated. Marry that situation to the countless nights of tossing and turning wondering why you had to be the one to experience losing your son, an only child who was a mere 21 years.
Below I will share with you some of the symptoms I experienced due to being stressed.
Some Stress Symptoms
Once I admitted that I was stressed, it was easier to make a list of the things that were relatively new and so I figured they were happening because I was feeling stressed from losing my son and watching my father losing his vision and his physical strength. Please see the list of things I experienced and some I am still experiencing after the death of my son.
- Constantly tired and lacking the motivation to do anything.
- Headache is a new norm.
- Not enough sleep. My brain is always super active when I try to sleep, so I do not rest well.
- I feel ill most days, but, can’t explain what is happening.
- My eyes are constantly wet as I cry a lot. The littlest of things said to me now can just leave me “bawling.”
- I am more irritable than before. This has left me snapping at loved ones.
- Feeling sad and maybe even a bit depressed at times.
- Withdrawing from friends and family members. Almost like a disconnect and it certainly helps me to remain in this place when they are too busy to even notice the changes.
- Some days I either eat too much or too little.
Help! My Son is Dead, but I am Not, Just Dealing with Stress and Diabetes
Hey, I am writing this article with my eyes filled with tears. I am however determined to complete and publish this article so that I can use my experiences to help someone else rise above their situation and control their blood glucose, even whilst they grieve or experience immense sadness, whatever the reason may be.
Please note that I am in my second month of trying to complete this one article. Yes, this would normally be done over a two day period. By now, some of the issues outlined above have disappeared. I still cry, but for shorter periods.
If I could have avoided this stress, then my son, DaMarco would be one of the pallbearers at my funeral. But, that is not how it goes. Things happen and we must find ways to manage our stress and remain healthy through it all.
Rising Blood Sugar Due to Stress: A Dangerous Situation for Diabetes
There were days when I tried to prevent my blood sugar from spiking to a dangerous level. Sometimes I failed, but other days I was successful. Imagine seeing your blood sugar spiked to 400+ (22+) when you are some days doing what you did before and had the readings between 98 to 110 (5.4 to 6.1). I was scared.
My eyes were blurry some days and my feet ached. My head was constantly throbbing and all the issues made me fearful that my funeral could be near. The truth be told, I am still feeling lost and I still wonder why I was not given a choice between Marc and myself. I would have gladly answered the Masters’ call and given this young man an opportunity to live and experience more.
So, here I was with the numbers climbing and also slipping habits. Yes, I was eating very differently and so one would have naturally expected spikes in my blood sugar. It was, however, a bit of an odd situation. Even when I started to eat right and take my medication, I still experienced those weird spikes.
I now knew I needed to confront my stress and find some way to cope and have more promising numbers. I also knew that I couldn’t continue with my website if my numbers were not improving. How could I share blood sugar lowering ideas when mine was out of control?
Exercise and Stress: Lower Blood Sugar
I knew that exercise made me feel better and that it had a lot of benefits, so, I got the dust off the stationary bike and started riding away.
Not so easy though. I rode amidst tears and thoughts of my son. My mind remained active as I still tried to understand and accept his death.
Being a Fire Victim in Jamaica
I blamed myself for becoming a teacher with such a small income as we get in Jamaica. My son remained in the public hospital where there was not a burnt unit and even though they did their best, I know he would have stood a better chance in the private system or in the United States of America.
Here was the challenge, there were no available ventilators in the other public hospitals or even a private hospital that was notified. Yes, you figure out the rest, there were no funds to move him to the United States and he also could not take the journey because he was so unstable.
This added to my stress and all these thoughts bombarded me as I rode. I however continued, sometimes angrily, again with tear-filled eyes. I noticed in a few days, as I continued to cycle, that the anger was disappearing and I had more positive thoughts.
One thing was for sure, I wanted to live. My life also needed to be of quality and I wanted to continue to teach and impact lives. I wanted to write and help others to see that there was hope and that there was absolutely no reason to fear diabetes and that it could at least be controlled. So, I continued to ride my bike as my head cleared.
Back to Riding to Relieve Stress and Control Diabetes
Within days I was calmer, still highly emotional, but I noticed a drop in my blood glucose level. I was not yet at a normal or close to normal reading, but, I was seeing a move in a positive direction. This for me was a “cloud with a silver lining.” My tunnel was now lit and I knew I could not turn back at this stage. I also was loving my mood again.
Allow me to share some links to other articles that could help if you need to be more serious about exercising for better health. Please follow the links and read the articles.
- What is a Recumbent Bike
- Why Resistance Training is Good for Diabetics
- Leslie Sansone Walk at Home, 1-Mile Workouts Review
Please allow me to share that when I finally started riding to reduce the stress I was feeling, many days I felt exhausted after only 2 minutes. I continued and now it is easy for me to ride for 20 minutes. I also try to ride more than once per day to increase the time spent riding and most importantly it makes me feel better overall.
Reduce Work-Related Stress and Control Diabetes
Work-related stress can be a real backbreaker. For me, this got so bad that I contemplated finding another job. Don’t get me wrong here. I went to work already stressed, but, I had one person who just sent my stress level above the roof. Here it was that I was dealing with the death of my son and this person was wasting my precious time with trivial matters.
I’ve always resented laziness and even in my stressed-out situation, I still hated the fact this person was so lazy and kept making excuses. How could I make this one person cause me to leave a job that I love dearly? I reached out to people higher up on the organization chart. Yes, they listened, but I felt that once I walked away, that was it.
Okay, so I quickly realized that my peace will come from within. I also knew that I was stressed and no doubt had a zero-tolerance approach. My only method of coping after asking co-workers to intervene was to just back off and to have very little professionally to do with this person.
That is working beautifully. I now see that person trying harder to achieve. It is however sad that sometimes when we are down, that is when others launch their attacks. Remember too that our own mental state also read more into things when we are stressed.
Reducing Emotional and Mental Stress
These were the ones that made me felt like I could go crazy. The constant bawling, the headaches, the extremely sad and lonely feelings, coupled with a lack of desire to keep pushing for the things I once desired. I was scared at how quickly I transformed into someone who couldn’t care less about most things around me. If you know me well, you would know that this is totally out of character.
I was always learning something new. I believed in lifelong learning. I felt that with God’s help and a lot of focussed hard work I could achieve whatever I said I would. I cared about people in general. What was happening to me? Why was I feeling so strange? Why was I pretending to be happy? Why suddenly the world seemed to be against me? Why was EVERYTHING going all sour around me? At least, that is how it felt.
You guessed correctly. My emotional and mental being needed help. I was stuck in crisis mode and I needed out. I love the Internet. Yes, that is why I am also writing this article. I know I have a responsibility to use my experiences to help others and I figured others have traveled this road, so I started searching for help. Yes, I was praying, but I also needed to take some responsibility for my mental and emotional health.
My research led me to deep breathing exercises and a lot of meditation. I started to take deep breaths, had more pleasant thoughts and I would just drive to the beach on my way from work and just allowed the wind to blow in my face as I praised God for His continued Grace and Mercies. I was forcing positive thoughts to the forefront and I was taking deep breaths and my world was returning.
The light at the end of the tunnel is that my glucose was more controlled in time and today I am able to complete this article because I can testify that stress does impact our blood sugar levels, but there are things we can do to reduce those numbers.
Exercise, meditation and a recognition that you are emotionally and mentally bankrupt will help you to get to that place of sweet peace and reduced numbers. Having a job means that we interact with people and they do not necessarily have our interest at heart. Knowing this and choosing your battles carefully will also lead to that sweet peace arena.
Maybe you lost a child or a loved one. I am truly sorry for your loss. Please know that there is hope. You are alive, so enjoy every minute that you are given. Be comforted in knowing that we serve a mighty and caring God. Yes, even though death walked through your home. Be at peace.
Until when next we “meet”, please continue the fight to rid your life of diabetes and may you find your place of “sweet peace.”
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To My Readers
I know I promised a recumbent bike review and I will deliver soon. I just needed this ice-breaker. Thanks for understanding and I appreciate you.